WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH
i had a 5yr boyfriend. we’re just a simple couple. not perfect. we had fights, troubles, lots of L.Q and everything but we love each other. we had plans, wishes and promises that we wanted to come true. i love him because he is he. no doubts. no questions. all i know is i really love him no matter what. i wanted him to become the man of my life forever, i even set my mind that he would be the father of my siblings. for the 4 years of our relationship he lived near in our house but unfortunately they have to transfer due to some instances. we promised to God that we won’t give up with one another even though there were so many trials happening. i stayed strong. i keep myself living and inspired even he’s far away. i thought everything runs smoothly but in just a blink of an eye all of our promises gone just because of a girl. i fight for him. i fight for our relationship. i sacrifice. i pleased him to be let the girl take out of the picture but he didn’t. it hurts me a lot. as in A LOT. i thought loving him would be the happiest thing i’ve ever done in my entire life. but then all of our promises fade away. he wanted me to stay. he wanted me to wait for him.. not thinking that it would hurt me so much. i wanted to move on. make my life still possible even without him. im trying. im still trying. how can i move on if in every little thing that i would do, there’s a memory of him.. its hard. its really hard but i have to. i need to make myself happy even if im in pain..